3/5/09: Being curious about seeing/‘awaring’ any apparent obstacles that arise when I step toward ‘putting my work out there’ and sharing my perspective with others. Seeing where I entertain thoughts coming from fear and doubt – of feeling not-enough. Feeling that I’m trying; coming from my own need for getting approval, recognition, acknowledgement. Not enough. Does this ‘need fixing,’ i.e., do I (the sense of me) take action to root out such thoughts, to dissolve such structures, to ‘heal?’ Or can the feeling of not-enough just be allowed to be there when it is seen, and then a sinking back into allowing all to be what it is, without it being separate from me, without there having to be a sense of a separate me here? (The only way to be truly done with feeling not enough is to be who You truly are.) And I guess i’ll try until I no longer need to.

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