at HeartSpace
Second Wednesday of each month, starting April 8th, 2009
7:00 p.m.
I have been a “seeker” on a “path” for many years. I have sought Enlightenment, the Absolute Truth of Being, Awakening out of illusion. To this end, I have “cultivated” Awareness through such practices as meditation and meditative inquiry, through reading the works of enlightened beings, through “Enlightenment Intensives.” All my wondering, all my seeking, has come from a sense-of-self that takes himself to be a separate, individual, conscious (although-not-fully) entity – what I refer to as “I” or “me.” It is this “I” who wants to become fully conscious: Enlightened, Awake.
But now a shift in perspective is happening. I am seeing that this “I” is the illusion! The perspective that I am a separate-individual-self-mind-body-person is the illusion. There is no “I!” Yes, there are years and years (most likely, eons) of conditioned body/mind that puts forth the argument and apparent proof that “I” “really” am this individual, currently expressing as this Ralph-person. But I have intuitively known for years that this personal “I” is simply a conglomerate of thought structures that perceives itself as a separate entity, everyone else as separate entities, and the world as separate forms – hence the illusion of separation.
All seeking, all wanting, all fear and all desire come from these thought structures that comprise the Ralph-I. Who am I without them? Although the intuitive knowing and intellectual grasp of what is Real and what is not is in place, there has yet to be a deep enough embodiment of the Reality, the Understanding. And so, I write about It, I speak about It, I know that I am It, and yet I still act as if the illusion is real – “I” still want to be Awake! I know that no amount of efforting, trying, practicing will awaken the separate sense-of-self who thinks he is not Awake, because there is no separate sense-of-self! The Reality of this exquisitely apparent illusion is that only Oneness is here. That’s the shift that’s happening. I’ll keep you posted. (Click for update.
